You’re right. You’re the only person who can decide what you want to do. No one else can make that decision for you. The only thing people can do is advise you along the way. But people can only do that if you give us enough information and ask good questions. It makes it even easier if people don’t have to decrypt your message! :P
There’s loads of info about programming and games courses on this site and other sites on the web. A quick search will turn up a lot of information to help make your decision.
Good luck and welcome to the community.